PATYCON

Today I learned something about myself that made me look at my twins differently.

I finally realized after years of not figuring out why I am so quiet yet love to write and express via images or can be so open to and around some people but so quiet around others or places . Finally I realized I am an ambivert 😊😍.

I am not completely an introvert, and I am not an extrovert either. I love my quiet. I love being home. I enjoy my own space and sometimes I can go a long time without needing to be around people. But at the same time, I can be very social. I can talk, laugh, connect, make friends and enjoy being around people when I feel comfortable and when the environment feels right.

I always thought I had to fit into one box. Introvert or extrovert. But maybe I was never meant to fit into one.

And then I looked at my twins.

Wow.

I can see pieces of myself in both of them.

They are both my ambivert personality, but expressed in their own unique ways. One may be more quiet and observant at one moment, while the other may be more expressive and social. Then the roles can change depending on the situation.

And it made me think about how amazing God is.

These two little girls came from me, yet they are not copies of me or copies of each other. They can carry pieces of my personality and still become completely different people.

It reminds me that God doesn’t make mistakes and He doesn’t make duplicates.

Sometimes we spend so much time trying to understand ourselves, trying to put ourselves into categories and wondering why we don’t fit perfectly into one description.

Maybe we don’t have to.

Maybe I can be an introvert and an ambivert. Maybe I can love people and still love my solitude. Maybe I can enjoy being social and still need to disappear into my own little world afterward.

And maybe my girls will each discover their own version of that too.

Watching them grow is teaching me that personality is not something we have to force into a box. There is beauty in being exactly who God created us to be.

Two girls.

Two personalities.

Two different expressions of the same mother.

And somehow, in them, I get to see little pieces of myself.

Wow.

The way God works. ❤️ . Being a twin mum has made me loved and discovered and is helping me understand myself in ways I could never have if I wasn’t one . To my dear daughters and my dear readers I introduce my first book . Inspired by my baby girls and my desire to understanding myself. Twinie ! A story of two hearts from one ambivert . Grateful 🙌🏽🙏.